treasure it....

2009-08-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

i wish that i did not gave it a second thought.
i wish that i gave my best.
i wish that, i did not care about how other feels.
i wish that i did not get my thinkings too complicated.
i wish that i had the courage.
i wish that i told you what i really felt then.
i wish that it is never too late.
i wish that i could turn time back.

WISHES never come true. bcos, it is all pure redemption.
trick me once, shame on you. trick me twice, SHAME ON ME. this really make sense.

2009-07-06T11:02:00.003+08:00

There goes my chance.....

to sit one the one million $$$ slide. Criuse postpone... sad. But this means we will have more time to practice and produce quality music! Then we can play ABBA GOLD! and not... slow pop slow songs. can play shrek dance party. 3 years in band, in the end, the highest grade song which i played was Hannukka. Wasted la. Then now need to go back to the basics again. My section is big hor! But idk who my juniors are. Mr Er separate us.. T.T. My section is young can. No seniors all graduate then some quit. Missing parts in clarinet not my fault. Its school's fault. Bad habits? from seniors! not me lehh... They are going to announce post soon... shit.

2009-05-15T21:19:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!~ i dissociates partially in you to get a low concentration of peisin ion!

this is what your birth date reveals about you!5 + 11 + 1994 = 20102 + 0 + 1 + 0 = 3Your Birth Number : 33’s are idealists. They are very creative, social, charming, romantic, and easygoing. They start many things, but don’t always see them through. They like others to be happy and go to great lengths to achieve it. They are very popular and idealistic. They should learn to see the world from a more realistic point of view.

Regardless of the result, i'll learn from it. I just realise that last minute study don't really work already. I can kiss goodbye to my sciences, i guess this year would be the first time i ever fail a subject. But, i'm going to try really really hard to get back my top positions. Monday is my last paper, lets see if i can turn the world upside down. haha.
Band going to resume, i seems to lack of some music in my life. Normal life is gonna resume!
This isn't a great week, a miserable one. Thanks, to that particular one who stood by me, let me pour my woes, and made me smile. told me to be strong. Sometimes, suffering in silenece, is the best things, won't affect others. All i have to do is to put on a smiley faced mask. Great!

NOTE: away for OBS from 1 to 5 june!

2009-04-21T18:27:00.002+08:00

When will 220509 come...

I think i miss band like mad already. i just felt really really empty. Without band, life seems to be so aimless. BUT!!! i've found a new aim! the upcoming MYE~! But quite slack. Though i revised some... but, i'm still not confident. Need to study alot alot more. I hope i could make it this Sunday cause it is Jialin's bdae! Hope Mummy would allow me. Had oral ytd, and thanks Jh for teaching me oral, cos i missed out lessons for oral then i only have the notes to refer, nothing much. Then thanks TY for giving moral support uh! He is super nice! haha! I feel so bad not going to support him for his race, as mum don't allow then too bad lo. Damn lots of projects, exams still need to do projects. Can Projects help in o level? Retarded idea of teacher. Esp chinese. Its irrelavant. This Saturday have Cat's musical.. I don't have anything that looks nice enough to go... Should i just go and borrow or... buy... bla wdv... wait until Friday then say...

you reap what you sow..

2009-04-08T18:30:00.002+08:00

Nothing comes true....

No matter how hard you pray
no matter how hard you wish
No matter how you try
Nothing comes true....
Miracle are just coincidence...
tell me they are not... I'm losing confidence...
I just want him to give me face of assurance. I don't want a change of conductor anymore. Please dont give up on us. Don't leave us alone, like he did. Please... Thats the last thing i'm wishing for...

Hugs needed... But i'm afraid i would break down again.... But WHO would be there...? No one...

2009-04-05T22:05:00.006+08:00

i'm only left with...
26HOURS!
I feel really helpless. Its going to be the first and last time. And we are not ready. Looking back, i starts to have regrets. I still cant bring in the emotions to meno mosso. I still cant make it. God, would you please help me? Help this Band? We really really hope to get a Silver. We need to get a Silver. I'm willing to sacrifice everything, just to get the silver medal. Can you help me to pull all the band members heart togerther, the percussion starts to be serious. Once we are on stage, there would be no way we can turn back. Tmr attendance would be good. EL teachers would xcuse band members from oral and postpone it, PLeae make it happen. We are only left with that mere 3 hours plus. Band members, treasure that time. PLEASE! Mr Poh, please don't give uo on us, everyone can but you can't. GOD! please help me, help the band... PLEASE....

2009-04-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

MENO MOSSO MEANS LESS MOVEMENT...

5 more days. And we are not ready. It would really be a miracle if we gets a silver. Really prays hard that we could get at least a bronze. Still cannot get the meno mosso parts right. The expression, the intonation! AND! Can't blend. Clashing like mad, it no don't even sound like music, it sounds like NOISE. Was suppose to brush up... But tmr have CIP. DAMN! Waste my time I must make it. I want the people playing Bar 60 and meno mosso and bar 128 parts to cry when the play. It WILL happen.

Think of the saddest thing that happened to you.

I nearly died today. fortunately, the bball didnt hit my head

2009-03-25T20:01:00.002+08:00

12 DAYS LEFT!

Gosh! AI band is racing with time! 12 days left! Mr poh say.... IF we gets Silver, it would be a miracle, and said that we had better pray... So....

Dear GOD AH... PLEASE HELP Ai band to obtain at least a Silver for Syf.

todays AD rehearsal sucks kena scolded by Ms Ang... Mushroom headed teacher.. Say we slow. Band isn't slow, is the teacher who never give us the proper instructions. We are just following whatever the teachers says. Don't look down on AICB la hor..

when she seems that she dont need you... its the time when she needs you the most...

2009-03-23T17:04:00.003+08:00

Running away from reality.

First day of school sucks! Anyhow arrange the tables, then i cant find the table i used for term 1. Got gan qing to it already... not to the table but the vandalism on the table. HEhEH. Tried to keep my eyes of that class, and i did! I did'nt even look at that class, wonder how i would be able to make it tmr.. there is band. Then wednesday, there is geog and band. How long can i hold on... Damn, can i go for service? Can i? NO i can't. AHAH another reason that i dare not go is because... she changed.

If things were that simple, if things would be solved so easily, it wouldnt be called LIFE! If its so easy to give and take, if it was so easy to stand up when you just sat down, if it was so easy to forgive and forget, if it was so easy as to talk to god and everything would be fine. Are you waiting for miracle to happen or waiting for that person to create the "miracle" for you? Snap out of it, cos you no longer meant anything to ***

2009-03-20T21:47:00.001+08:00

THINKINGS SORTED OUT!
swam 20++ laps today...Continuously. and when i swam, i seems to forget everything! nice one! i love it~! and i love band! When there is band, i will forget everything!

2009-03-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

Wednesday marks the end of the holiday...

Monday went to library to do holuday homework. I finished my Amaths. woohoo!

YTD, when to Wisma atria to collect my phone from the "hospital." I lost ALL my contacts. ALL! i only memorised some number. Trial post out!! anyway its just trial.. Not the real thing.

Its band day again! Start on the trial thing. Band keep quiet.. SHH!!!~~~ SHH~~~ dunno say how many times. stil SHH~~~... then after that played volleyball in school! And talking to tee yong makes you cold.. shiver... He is SUPER LAME! he dries his clothes using the moonlight.

20days before SYF. YES WE CAN!

2009-03-09T19:08:00.002+08:00

GOING TO SCHOOL LEARNING NOTHING!

Sec1 and 2s go OLE, then we all lehh, stay in school. Damn School! no one elses to blame except that dumb school! Mrs Chew was suppose to check my hair and not my skirt! She wants me to unhemm my skirt lehh! Wahlan! mine is acceptable lo! She is being ridiculuos lorhs, should not have seen her today, then less trouble. Today is practically like free period and learning nothing.! Such days should continue for the whole year! Physics practical test. Damn!~ Damn happy! CUZ I GOT A2 for physics which was totally unexpected! WEE!
THEORY EXAM ON SATURDaY!WEE! then... 7 april SYF, super not looking forward to it.
SILVER PLEASE!

2009-03-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

Caught! The First TIME!

damn mrs chew, i pinned up my whole fringe for the first ever time is my whole entire life!. Tmr confirm tying my hair already. Her way of pinning short hair sucks to the core! Don't care lerhs, today already malu like siao lerhs, tying my hair should'nt be a big problem anymore. I'm super busy sia! Everyday is like a mad rush, in school rush, after school rush, home rush, tuition rush. Grr.! I need a break! Getting more and more hot tempered! Die.

Stupid LJH!~! you... Watch out! bloodily punished my section and still thinks that you're right.

2009-03-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

when would i ever learn to make up my mine...

ytd concert was good! But there is still room for improvement.! Please do not let it be the last time when we would be playing to challenge the sky and heavens above. Hope mr ong would respect OUR decisioN! its our band! We practise hard for want we want to achieve and we cannot do it! We must do it!. i really really hope when poh come on tues, he would bring us the good news.

Should i tie my hair tmr...? really afraid that i would be caught one day.

i've waited long enough, and made the first step, my hand is always there, but yours was'nt. Forget it. You have your own life, while i've mine. 我已开始习惯没有你的日子....

2009-02-26T12:05:00.002+08:00

ITS A SHE!

Examiner is a woman. She is damn tall and damn skinny. One look of her sends chill down my spine. I was shivering the night before the exam. And that trigger my sweaty palm. A piece and B piece was a breeze. BUT c piece was sucky. My fingers slipped, and all the hardworks are gone... Though the last chord was okay... But it was'nt loud enough. And my scales are rubbish. Sight-reading and oral is expected de.... i got the allgretto piece which was err.. then the aural is... dont want to talk about it. SAD LA! over already... Left with my theory. I will start memorising all the terms. Must get back my dist.!

DAD bought a new notebook! with webcam. finding a target... HAHA! becarefull.!
didnt went back to school after exam, went to northpoint with mummy... to.... buy new contacts! my contact lens already 1 year liao. Come to think of it, it has been with me for so long. Whatever i see, it has also seen. Abit BU She DE.

CHEM test tmr...! woohoo! at least for now, I like chem! hahas! physics test on lens was perfect! as lynn and junwei helped me! hahs!

Saturday would be our concert! woohoo!

its time for you to look around and see what's going on... i want to old you...

2009-02-24T21:45:00.002+08:00

LET US ALL CLOSE OUR EYES, AND HOPE THAT.....

26/2/09, 10.03 AM... THAT EXAMINATION WOULD BE A BREEZE!

GIVE ME A SOLEMN PIECE TO PLAY FOR SIGHT-READING~!

2009-02-23T22:41:00.003+08:00

I never knew that until today...

To think that, what i've done is nothing to you. NOTHING. I think my practical is gonna die!

nervous...

heartache....

2009-02-22T13:41:00.002+08:00

TISSUES EVERYWHERE!

Falling sick isn't a good thing after all. Can't seems to concentrate on anything, staring into the space, doing nothing is a waste of my time! Stacks of homeworks and things to rmb are waiting for me. I'm not having fever, but yet i feel the heat running up to my head and this made my eyes wet. Super wet, like i've cried.

it was only now, then i realise, it was me who thought that you were very important, but to you, i wasn't even worth a single cent. i'm just someone whom you could make use of. Just a passer-by in you life. yet, i'm still clinging on, hoping that... it wasn't the truth...

2009-02-20T21:58:00.003+08:00

BAD NOSE night!

I DON'T why i changed the skin until like that... CUZ... its in yellow? close to orange? Sight-reading and oral, and scales are really killing me. I dont think i can make it this time round. Seriously, everything seems to come to me at the same time, and i nearly died of suffocation. Ever since that day, talking to you seems like talking to the wall. I only have 2 words from you... LOLS, haha... Not bad uh? better then the wall uh. Oh my gosh! I really really hope that the examiner is not a WOMAN, if it is, she would be super strict. Esp those angmoh woman, old already, they looked super... SCARY. My Gondolier is still with Jingyi. After p.theory exam, i feel like taking one month break from piano. I really sian diao already. I need to get those emotions for piano BACK! i became Mellissa. Stupid mr faisal. He go save my project work as... mellissa,lynn,junwei. Damn it sia. Lynn down there laughing like hell during geog lesson. GGRR....

TMR still have Mr ho... I'm going early then i can kup my fav corner. I realised that i cant concentrate on my work when i'm sitting at other places. Whoever snatch my place from me, i will KILL you! CHRYSTAL IS GOING FOR STEVEN TMR NIGHT! WOOHOO! ~ finally, i waited for a very very long time already...!

Hope tmr would be a better day.

as each day passes by, i'm slowly dissapearing in your life.... M i right??

2009-02-19T17:34:00.002+08:00

INTENSE!!!

I can't believe i slept the whole afternoon after i reach home! DIE! i wasted my time, and later i have to go mr ho! AND I HAVE NOT STUDIED PHYSICS! LENSES!. My physics cannot cmi again already, i must make it nah! And, my english compre improve! wooho. Hope dont have to go el srp. And i hope no Cl srp, and no Physics srp. If physics srp does not falls on wed, i would go, but, it falls on wed! tmr will know who would be going for srp.
Chem test was.. HAHASS! i did some of them during mr ho! And that woman actually copied the whole question, the whole chunk in! except the ammonia part. GRR.... And i still dont know what the hell is... relative abundance. searched the net.. and what i got is...,

How can you calculate the relative abundance of two isotopes when given the atomic masses of both isotopes and also the average atomic mass for the element?
Igloo says The conventional method is to use algebra. Let’s take an example. Copper consists mainly of two isotopes, 63Cu and 65Cu, and its (average) atomic mass is 63.55 (to 2 d.p.) Let’s assume next that the percentage abundance of 63Cu is x This means that the percentage abundance of 65Cu will be 100-x Given 100 random copper atoms, x will each have a mass of 63 [total mass = 63x] And 100-x will have a mass of 65 [total mass = (100-x) x 65 = 6500-65x] So the total mass of 100 atoms = 63x + 6500–65x = 6500–2x This means that the average mass = (6500–2x) / 100 But we are told in the question that average mass = 63.55 Therefore (6500-2x) / 100 = 63.55 So 6500–2x = 6355 Hence 2x = 6500-6355 = 145 And x = 72.5 So, in a typical sample of copper 72.5% of the atoms are 63Cu and 27.5% are 65Cu.

and... i don't even understand a single part of it.
GEOG TEST= no hope, didn even prepare the least...

2009-02-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

Climate change could be even worse than feared The amount of carbon that could be released is staggering.
Since the beginning of the Industrial Revolution an estimated 350 billion tonnes of carbon dioxide (CO2) have been released through the burning of fossil fuels.
The new estimate of the amount of carbon stored in the Arctic's permafrost soils is around 1,000 billion tonnes. And the Arctic is warming faster than any other part of the globe.
Several recent climate models have estimated that the loss of tropical rainforests to wildfires, deforestation and other causes could increase the concentration of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere from 10 to 100 parts per million by the end of the century.
The current level is about 380 parts per million.
"Tropical forests are essentially inflammable," Field said. "You couldn't get a fire to burn there if you tried. But if they dry out just a little bit, the result can be very large and destructive wildfires."
Recent studies have also shown that global warming is reducing the ocean's ability to absorb carbon by altering wind patterns in the Southern Ocean. Faster winds blow surface out of the way, causing water with higher concentrations of carbon dioxide to rise to the surface.
Sea levels are also rising faster than previously estimated as ocean temperatures warm and melting ice in mountain glaciers and at the poles flows into the ocean, warned Anny Cazenave, of France's Centre National d'Etudes Spatiales.
Fresh analysis using satellite imaging has shown that in the past 16 years, average sea levels have risen at a rate that is twice as fast as the last century: more than three millimeters a year.
Some regions have seen levels rise as much as one centimeter a year, Cazenave told reporters.
The expanding use of biofuels could also contribute to global warming because farmers are cutting down and burning down tropical forests to plant crops, said Holly Gibbs of Stanford University.
"If we run our cars on biofuels produced in the tropics, chances will be good that we are effectively burning rainforests in our gas tanks," she warned.
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wah die... DIE DIE DIE. going to be the EOW liao lah. Still want to live longer, i still have alot of things which i have not done.

YQ and I came my house. Told mum is come do hw, in the end down there laughing.

原来我一点也不了解你...

2009-02-15T15:03:00.007+08:00

ONCE IN A BLUE MOON

YTD moon was BLUE!!! YTD was V. day! well, humans are greedy, its always not enough. The moon was blue bcos, i could go THERE THERE, and its super once in a blue moon de norhs. But had to leave early, then went to popo shop/ cousin house as usual. then night still have steven. But Lin lao Shi talk damn funny sia, we talking about the Shao nu Xing zui an ji zeng... then talked about the teacher and the 15/16 year old guy de XXX then all laugh like siao. AND!!! i saw aloysius, it has been like... 3 years before i met her again.! I think she think i siao, cuz i kept looking at her....:X cuz she looked super familiar ahh. Then i msg her, lucky her no. neh change ehh.. HEHE. She say i change alot, yah right, fatter...

Then after went to Ahma house AS USUAL...

Today morning went to airport, send cousin, cuz she going back shanghai...

and i'm still struggling with the mashed cupcakes Irina gave.... i've been staring at these for hours...

when a dog knows that its going to die, it will walk as far as it wants, and wait for the time to come...

That dog is really stupid sia... she was fat, and strong, but time has made her so old, so skinny, and now, she is lying there waiting for her time to come.

2009-02-10T22:01:00.003+08:00

After ytd, 2.4, my heart has been beating so fast, i'm feeling super breathless then until now, i'm still out of breath. And somehow, i feel that something is stopping my heart from beating sia, then keep on having cold sweats, then, that kind of feeling when you are very nervous. Then the heart like want to beat can't beat. Shit. Perhaps could use buff oil. Then abit pain uhh...

but the thought of you worsen my condition...

2009-02-09T18:05:00.002+08:00

Once it's gone, it would be gone for good, but when you make a decision, there is always alot of reasons to support your decision. Once the decision is made, don't ever look back.

Me have decided not to go Perth. Though it is super fun, super educational, I super want to go, but... I have o lvl chinese. I must get A1, this time, there is no way to turn back anymore, i don't want to regret like PSLE, this time is o lvl , i know my el really really cant make it already, i can only put all my hopes in my Normal cl, then after that the HCL will help me to minus 2 points. woohoo.

Saw a video, though it made sense, the background music super nice! infront is some korean word, then after that behind is Trinity piano 3. anybody who has that song, i will thanks you all my life. i listened to that song 83 times already! super nice!

26/2 is getting nearer, and nearer, yet, i no longer feel the tension. i cant do my scales, i cant do sight reading and my oral is borderline. I cant make it i guess. Left two more lessons, i'm going to make my rumba toccata super smooth, and my refrain du gondolier. I tried the piano, and its super hard and the pedal is super hard. If i play f there, i have to play ff on my piano. My c piece is gonna diee...

This saturday... is JIAJIA jj de bdae! wooho! Valentine day. PLS let me out on that day, let me have some fun bfore, 26/2 and 14/3... PLease....

I want no more empty promises..

2009-02-08T14:43:00.004+08:00

jealousy won't bring you anywhere.

There would be a combined school band concert, something like that, @ Singapore COnference Hall(SCH), i THINK it is around 730pm to 930 pm. ON 28feb, Saturday. The tickets cost 10 bucks each. IF you want to come, tell me by monday 12am.

The nearest MRT station, Tanjong Pagar, from Exit E is a 4-minute walk to the Singapore Conference Hall.

http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_8135/travel_site_2980/

( click to view the map)

bring a friend along if you're afraid that you'll be bored to tears.

The world is changing every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month, every year. And everyday, people change, due to the surrounding, due to the blow they have dealt, due to..... almost everything!

OVERDUED...

2009-02-07T17:55:00.004+08:00

Sorry again. I had just realise that i have made promises which are beyond my means. I could not do anything about it, i have no control over my life, i can't control it. THEY control me, maybe i should not have replied that msg, i wish i had never knew you, so that there won't be a burden, less things for you to worry. When i thought that i had nothing else, you should have just ignored me, i should not have gone that day, then i would not know another person, then i would not have to dissapoint both of you. When i managed to go there, i had to exchange it with something, but now, nothing could exchange for the time i could go out. Perhaps that would be my first and last time going there. It seems that i'm making excuses, i have tried to sacrifice, but everything was in vain, i could do nothing about it. No matter what i do, there will be someone that is super happy with it and the other so unhappy with it.

BLA

have to redo Geography project... =.-

2009-02-02T18:18:00.003+08:00

YOU SUCKS LA ANG PEI SIN. PLAY PLAY PLAY YOU THINK FUNNY. DUMBASSS..

I don't know what you want. I can't catch any of your hints. I don't even know if you're hinting. What if you are not or even you are. Can you just tell me... Or am i being too sensitive. I want this to be settled once and for all. It has been bugging me. How i wish you had not appeared in my life.

Syafiq ONG! is the first guy who took and umbrella and sheltered me! When we were in pri 3. Dont worry... he's a gay boy as in now. hehe. Primary 3 reminds me of PJH. eversince then.., my hand got the letter P. Until now, it is still there. Until now i still dont understand why he suddenly become to cold towards me when i change class to 4b and stayed in b in my whole pri life. I wanted to ask why, but never had the chance. Once the chinese spelling, i neh learn then cheat. stupid me kena caught. He also kena caught. But cher didn catch us, she see us after class. I was Shocked that he actually cheat luh. As in pri3 sit tgt then cheat tgt.:X HAHS. will i ever see him again....

i dont even know why i'mposting this...

CRAZY ALREADY. THIS IS CALLED STRESS~~~~ getting into depression.

2009-02-01T21:48:00.003+08:00

TEST AND TEST! QUIZ AND QUIZ! EXAMS AND EXAMS! SRP AND SRP! BAND AND BAND! TUITION AND TUITION! THATS MY LIFE. YTD went to cchy got music xchange. SAW SYAFIQ ONG! Projects not done.! gosh! if my summary test dont pass, i shall kill myself. I dowan el srp. Waste time i have better things to do... Sick and tired of almost everything... everything... anything...

你不是真心的.....

2009-01-24T17:23:00.002+08:00

IRINA LOW!
i'm not sure if you are looking at this... but what i said that night is real except for paying your phone bill unless... i'm the one who made it BOMBA.. hahs.
I'm like feelingso bad rejecting Irina and Yong Qing all the time and whenever they ask me to go for service.. They take turn to ask de.. HAHS!
went to BUY cny clothes with lynn and jingyi.. They pei me.. AND i dont even know where i went to buy. Went to sakae then went to buy clothes then went to buy a pencil box! and a new wallet!woohoo as the converse wallet is already dying.! dont torture it anymore. hehe. then after that went to some relavtive house then they got bbq.. but i forgot to eat... just sit and the rooftop swing... CAlled lynn... called.......... and called irina.... HEHE! then went to buy flowers/plant then went home at around 12. By then ah my phone and my battery already FLAT lerhx.
Morning woke up and was nearly late for mr ho at 8am. Then came back, slack a while then on com then do hw. didn even touch piano theory. SIAN

GUEss what i saw on band blog??
that _!_ GO AND put something on the band blog... shameless. He seriously have no common sense. DUMB! Dowan elaborate lerhsx. He say he want to blow his top blow la. without him, the band can still work. HE cant even help the tuba la, make gabriel cry, he cant even teach and i don see the point of him coming back. CUZ HE IS COMPLETELY USELESS. GET OUT! BULLSHIT!
BRAINLESS.

then after that JINGYI save the day of course.

later still have tuition... SIAN NA... 7-9pm.... its killing me already...

2009-01-22T16:56:00.002+08:00

I DOWAN TO DO CHORD PROGRESSION LAA~~!!! mr poh!!!! aiya say also dont know... =.- tsk... Sian

i just realise something, tortoise kor is growing FAT luhhss.. he getting fatter and fatter. LOOKs ugly liao... lynn not having phone for 5 days... she die.. i also die nehh... _!_ i kena english srp!!! shit la i pass my test but still need go. Write too much points, minus point (it is relevant point lehh). sian norhs... YAO laoshi taught us chinses for the last day. It's her last day in aiss and wu lao shi coming back lerhx. Sian.. i think i already starting to miss her already.. REALLY! Going to mr ho soon... TODAY IS AMATHS! woohoo.. okay i dont even think i like maths.. then erm... my chem and physics test gonecase liao. Chem cooling curve i drew as heating curve. SHIT ME! Then physics, i take 20/T when it's suppose to be the other way round. SHIT ME AGN! i sucks lah... begining of the year already want to die liao later amaths got LOG ahh i die liao. NVM i've ANG KAH SIENG AS BACKUP! hahas.

Am i being too sensitive? Or too insensitive? Is he really waiting for me?? Is he taking a longer route home just to accompany me... orrr... he wanted to go with big groups?? the latter i guees.

2009-01-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

i miss ZIGUI... GOSH... suddenly... he was there that time but he's not here anymore.

i miss IRINA. I think i miss Yong Qing too. Though only met once. TEST AND TEST. TOMORROW iSS YONGER DE BDAE! I just pluck up my courage and....... (secret). surprisingly...... agreed to it.

THIS IS going to be my first and last time for syf. i dont want to get cop or bronze.. i want to maintain at least a silver. i dowan ppl to say we're noob. scoldings from majors without reason is fun! wooho!! and that stupid ******* go die la stop being so extra.

2009-01-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH ! everything is killing me! fri cca open house! spent sometime with yong er and presy! then this coming thurs is yong er bdae! woohoo......
practical exam is on 26/2 then theory is on 14/3 and i stil haven finish my theory homework lahh!!! I FEEL SO SICK.

2009-01-12T18:45:00.002+08:00

不管有多大的改变，都已经无所谓了.我们的距离越来越远，你再也看不到我的转变了.不在乎天长地久.只在乎曾经拥有.我好想你, 好像在抱你最后一次。i saw this on zi gui... ermm pm.. yah and it makes alot alot of sense. talking about zigui i think it has already been a year or so ever since i saw him... I guess he changed alot alot. i'm like going crazy with all the homeworks piling up to mount everest and queueing up to the moon. The schedule is like pack till i cant breathe at all. Mon, remedial. tues, band, wed, band, thurs, tuition, fri band, sat tuition and tuition, sunday piano. and there is like no time to squeeze it in and time cant be compress. today is prescilla bdae! happy bdae! hahs! end here.

如果把你的眼神默背好，就可以无视寂寞的悬崖，我想，我不会像现在这么糟，如果把走过的路都记牢，就可以面对断线的依靠，至少，孤单不用如此的骄傲，不止热雨的微笑增加跟脑海的湿掉，抓不紧，也放不掉，未来的梦和街角是否转身就找得到

爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到，只要你觉得快乐就好，梦会温热眼角，让回忆像水草般缠绕，却总能让人勇敢不消，爱是一种需要，聚散却没办法预料，只能在心里做个记号，只到那天遇到，还会是同样的味道，下雨也好驱风也好，心想着就能不会难熬

2009-01-05T17:45:00.003+08:00

WHO ON THIS EARTH AT THIS AGE, WOULD BRING THIER BF HOME WHEN THEY KNOW THAT THEIR PARENTS MIGHT BE BACK ANYTIME?

why compare other ppl with you? Does everyone thinks that way? Stop comparing yourself and me. Both of you had got the freedom during your secondary school life, why cant i have mine? mind you, i'm already like sec3 this year luhhs. I only have on secondary school life in my whole life time, and i'm gonna spend it my way, and i promise i will never regret. I want my life. So what it is for my own good? to you it for my own good, but to me? I will never get to see the world, i only have my own square and i live in that small square, cant move out of it. I cant rebel cuz i dont want my sis to be influence and that will be another crime of me. STOP making assumptions luhhs, not everyone is like you, i have my own mind, and you are depriving me from having a mind of mine. THATS NOT FAIR!!! WHEN will both of you trust me and listen to me? i know i will never gain that trust, but 忍耐有限。　

THIS WEEK GONNA KILL ME. there would be band and tuition one after another. cant finish the project,math sums, and that 2 chinese compo. sick and tired of writing and writing. HE went to tell yan rong, yong er, prescilla, to come back for band. I guess not much hope bahs.. instead of daydreaming, i had rather spent my time training my new juniors. MR ONG place them in clars , they had to start all over again, and i had to start all over again too. It took me around 3 months to practice page 7 no.3 and i practise every single day and i practices the A TO B jump, unless they do that, else there wont be mircale.

its not only a mad rush but a rash decision.

2008-12-31T15:20:00.003+08:00

last day of 2008... should post post abit bahs...
lols. did a chinese comphrehension today, chanced upon a passage. last sntence was, something like..." ren sheng zhi you yi ci, no matter what happens, life has to go on, gu shi hai shi hui yi zhi xie xia qu. " makes alot alot of sense. If teacher fanny had told me that she was sick today, i would be able to go out with irina, i would be able to go out and eat with jing yi and lynn. When she sms at 145, i was like so happy. told my mum, in the end, still cant go out. Just now view irina de blog then got the test hor, i nothing to do then go do the test. but no exactly 100% CORRECT. but i'm no extrovet i'm introvet...!

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got scolded by "somebody" before. HE/SHE say i very stupid. always sacrifice myself for others. did i? i suppose not. Even if sacrifice also not enough luhhs. if sacrifice, things would not have turn out this way.

2008-12-29T18:41:00.004+08:00

firstly, i got my cboxx back. so mavis khoo, stop irritating me. you should be honoured that i actually bothered to do what you tell me to do. enjoy you trip in malaysia...

practically, i have got back from taiwan like long long time ago. And i like almost everything except for that dao you who made me puke. had to put up with all his sarcsms... talking about him makes my blood boils better not scold him. must "ji de ":X

ON SATURDAY>>>27/12/2008!
i woke up like 7 plus then go mr ho. then after that, i rushed to eat breakfast cuz i was actually going out with IRINA de... butt, she cant make it in then last second. then i go with her frens luhhs... i was liks really really really shock that there is like a hugehugehuge group of ppl down there. then i was there OH GOSH! can i run away... it was really like a huge group luhhs. BUTBUTBUT i not angry with irina, cuz she is my darling maa.. and she said 9 sorries to me, so do i have any reason to be angry with her? i not petty de larhx... still got many many many chance to go out. just that if i could go out, anytime also can meet her de. Anyway its not her fault. i should have spam called her until she wake up... muahh hahah. SOOOSOOOSOOOSO ITS MY FAULT.:) CASE CLOSED!

and yeah... i cut my hair! talking about hair... HAHHHA! reminds me of haikal shall stop bad mouthing. hahas. mine is super ugly lahhs... irina also cut hair lerhhx. heard she say she will look like sotong. BUT DUN WORRY, i like it! anyway we are suppose to meet today for lunch hahas, but she cant make it.i scared she bluff me de, so i still went to mac with lynn, viknesh, and jeremy. hahas. perhaps it FATE bahs... we'll meet one day, ONE FINE DAY.since we already met once, there will be another time. perhaps its not the right time. FATE AHH! DUN LIKE THAT LEHH... LIKE THAT I CANT ME IRINA LERHS LEHH....

2009 is coming and im not looking forward to it. different class, everyone is in the different class luhhs. i only like 2e4 cuz we are like the most enthu combination. We bully teacher together. quarell. looking back, i really regretted not studying harder. it i had studied harder, i might not end up in guilt. psle like that, streaming like that. thus im aiming only polys i gueess, i dun wan to dissapoint myself further. SET MY TARGETS low so that i can reach them and i wont face so much failures in my life. ppl having streaming next year really really must study hard. if not you will regert like me.

lastly, people who are looking for one to one tuition, pls contact me at 96376858, all subjects are available. good teachers are garantteed. AND the fees are definitely cheaper then outside. contact me for further DETAILS.

2008-12-10T15:11:00.007+08:00

I post because, i forgot something important! And That is i change my skin. :X not i change de. Credits mainly goes to IRINA DAR! :X Thanks uh! Ai Si NIES!

TODAYs a non-band day. Just finished my theory homework. :X taking both practical, and theory next year, around march bahss, then SYF, also during march, guess i will die due to exhaustion. Really afraid the syf would clash with my exams... I LOVE MY B PIECE! WOOHOO!, REFRAIN DU GONDOLIER. Why don't abrsm go and put some pop songs in the exam pieces so that we can showcase our so called "talent'. :X And i bought, vandoren reed, not bad wor, no need to season jiu can play liao, guo ran is branded de. flying off at the mid night of 15 december.

stock check...

J>P>L

i tie my hair(dont laugh)

that day went kupkup, sunset...

2008-12-09T17:22:00.004+08:00

TODAY IS band day. Taught the s1 theory blahblah, i guess being a theory teacher is like, so hard de luhhs. luckily they all fast learners they learnt quite fast. Quite amazing luhh, in one day they learnt almost alot luhhs. at least got grade 3 bahs. NOT BAD kayss. Jing yi gone pek cek. Then after everything, was given a soft approach talk from BM. I only got to listen half, then they went to eat while they talk. Too bad i cant go out.... =.= neh mind. AND i just realise that i have alot alot of holiday assignments, GOSH!~ GOING AWAY TO TAIWAN FROM 16-21.

theyaregettingmoreandmorecloser,whileimgettingstupiddaybyday....

2008-10-19T20:01:00.002+08:00

how do i say. Efforts paid off or i didnt put in enough effort, the dumb me. Too carless. Nobody to blame but only me. Nevermind Not quantity but quality... I'm really going to start studying when i get my books. Firstly, my all my choices falls under the science combination of course. Compulsory subjects would be el, hmt, e maths, chem, a maths, then geog elective. I'm not going to take history cause the better teacher is gone. Then i will take pure biology. then second choice i take pure physics. third choice like bo bian liao so i take english lit elective then biology. almost all the choice the same la, if take physics also no problem got mr ho. From next week onwards mr ho starts, friday starts working at kahteck, with the pay of 20 bucks per day. Poor pay but better then nothing.
I really very scared luhhs, i dont really like changing environment i'm afraid i cant adapt as fast laa. Damn scary laa i can imagine that the whole class all damn quiet then i have to keep quiet then seat there one corner. Somemore i'm afraid that i would be index no.1! shit laa! So scared la!
And i'm so going to chiong my normal chinese and i must get a1. I plan everything liao just hope that everything would go so smoothly.

2008-10-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

maybe i have gone rusty again. but why must it be this time? why not the other, wether i can change my fate depends on this and i ruin it with my own hands... SO in conlusion i will always lose to aka laa! whatever i do is just because i learnt it. I learn piano so? you all would say that if he learn piano he would be the best pianist. last time swimming lesson also like this he would win me. PSLE also like this, he win me, all this shows that i'm fated to lose laa in everyone eyes he the tian cai me lehh the person who have big brains but nao li shen cao. pissed me laa hor? When i finally have something that was better than him, which was chinese, they would say chinese lan nevermind anyway as long as you can speak in chinese can liao, chinese so good for what? It is not an international language afterall. MUST THEY REALLY STEP on me like this? Am i really that lan? Am i really so stupid? Well i M ! No matter how much effort i put in, in would always be in vain. I cramp my head with evcrything i know, squeezing out all the brain juice i have, telling myself that i can make it what the point? I STILL CAN'T MAKE IT! What can i do? ACCEPT THE FACT LUHHS think that there are still people more worse than me. BUT I STILL BU GAN XIN!

OKiees enough of those craps. Ytd and today had band. My Clar got infected by hazzry's clar!! 1ARRS i wanna kill him . All the small small bugs crawling all around the clar. OHMYGOSH! the slightest thought of it made me feel itchy! RAWW! DISGUSTED! then saw tong and the barbaric man had the same hairstyle and they look like father and son. Then Mr tong personally gave the clar sectionals today! We were made to put a piece of paper at the front teeth and tighten the embrochure and blow. The pieces of paper is like to reduce friction or something blahblah then the tone wil sound OOOOO ROUNDER! THIS is the first time i ever put paper in my mouth. BLEAH! puii!!! but it really sounded rounder and the tone quite nice also lehh..

HAHAS! went home and had piano lesson. NEW SONGS! MY B piece is out! woohoo! I LOVE REFRAIN DU GONDOLIER to the core! I LOVE ROMANTICS TO THE CORE!!!

REFRAIN DU GONDOLIER!@

that man is under stress again and i have to stand his temper. BLAh pls dun bring your stress home you are not the one suffering and it is us and ma can be a man laa hor.

2008-10-10T09:49:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF EXAMS!!!! WOOHOOO!!!! YAY!!!! not actually happy because my happiness would only be complete until the results comes out and no more worries... Then the 2e4 would be separated... I dun wan larhh... like that hor... sec2 is the best.. sec1 just come to a new school so it an adaptation... then sec2 is play! is frens!! Sec3 is like CCA =.= and getting use to the new class... studies... then sec4 is o levels =.=. Time is like going so fast.
yesterday maths was... I dunno. I'm not sure luhhs, all the question are like quite easy as i can do most of it, but i finish at 930am which made me feel unsecure. When i finish i still see alot of ppl doing there paper, i see liao i more scared i scared later all careless mistake. NEH MIND it is over...OVER!!!! then after school then walk the longer route home.. but i also dunno why.. HAHAS! stayed at home do anything. MUM dun allow me out, then dun go out luhhs.. lazy go argue anyway also nobody ask me out, so stayed at home.
I'm going to pester someone who would sleep all day long pester until he cant sleep. woah hahha!!! you wait you wait. you are going to have 100 over miss call if you dun pick up.

2008-10-03T17:43:00.001+08:00

i week of exams passed! how many days left i loss count.! i only know i hhave tuition everyday!

2008-09-19T21:17:00.003+08:00

UH... i'm busy studying uh, didnt have anytime to spare... NO larhx.. that was not the fact, i was slacking actually, just can't get into the correct mood. Say i busy is jus an excuse uh. Briefly, on Sat, went to popo house to play "FIRE" then meet jiong yang and max,mavis,avis they all. Then go popo house then we go down the basketball court, then playplay fire, everything also throw in and burn.;X then me Yang and max , we go take all the candles, then go and make a heart-shape, it is only done by the 3 of us.=) though is abit out of shape but....

then tuesday went out with jialin , hweechi then rina came later, but this time, they got study i nvr study. hehex/..;x cant find anything else to do mahx.... then ytd, got pe, then after pe, guess what? i got fever. =.= then went home early, go doc to get the mc. cant believe the medicine plus a thin sheet of paper = 29 bucks. Whatever. theh go home sleeep. wake up alot ppl msg me. including jialin,rina,and lynn! if like this i rather everyday sick lo... ;P

mugging time...! no more slacking hehx...

2008-09-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

I WILL NEVER NEVER FORGET TODAY!

YES! after waiting for so many years, i finally got to go out with my friends, as in go out play not band concert not something related to studies you know. Last time no matter how i beg, i will never get to go out, the more i beg, the more they will nag. Nag nvm, but still kena caning. Until this very day, i say i wanted to go out. She said OK! i was like so damn shock! So damn happy, What i am left to aim is that, eoy class chalet thing, They still refuse to let me go, comparing me and when they are young,,, ZZZzzzZZZ bleahnsx larhx.! went to causway de library with jialin, rina,xueting,hweechi. Went there to study. And we really did study. WE REALLY REALLY study. Ii would like to thanks them for acc me! hhas. aft school, we walk out of sch then saw 965. xueting say ehs 965! then dunno who scream then jialin scream then rina scream then surprisingly, i also screamed.. then in the end we caught up with the bus luhhs.. like that luhhs.. then go there luhhs.. then study. lazy type and no time type liao. THANKS PPL. hahs

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2008-09-11T21:20:00.004+08:00

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today, i dun wish to say anything or give comments about it. What i have to do now is just to get use to it, this will be the last chance and i will stand firm to my decision and never to turn back anymore. Thank Rina & teabrain(MD):X hahs. I believe i will never regret this decision of mind. today had PE then the play frisb... damn fun uh! Then after that MT with SHUI JING BAOO. science with emily, recess with buddies, then homeec with oror, lit with kaur then math with veronicaca then mu with monkey face. then one school day ended. After that ate in school with rina & teabrain. THEN they accompany me to the busstop and waited for the bus then bb. then go HOHO. then come back. nvr talk only keep on coughing, then now leh, totally lost my voice. i'm serious. ONE DAY ENDED AND I LOST MY VOICE.

sipenieolvesnyln,inlija,nair... and many more... =/

2008-09-05T13:40:00.003+08:00

yesterday, was damn lame lame. i was like damn bored then i suddenly rmb that we have not done our music project. Then i kan jiong kan jiong, take the phone, then still thinking wether to call rina or jialin. Then in the end, i called jialin. She picked up her phone, and here goes the conversation.
Jialin: hello, who are you?
peisin: OH! ME IS peisin.
Jialin: ohh( piano background.)
Peisin:you having piano lesson uh? then sorry uh call you later.
Jialin: nono. Me and rina borrow the studio to practise piano.
Peisin: OHHHHHHH!!!!
Jialin: Anything?
Peisin: our music project how uh?
Jialin: i dunno.---- talk to rina: our music project how uh?
Rina: ehs! hello peisin. music project? (talking to Jialin)
then jialin explain explain. then me go anyhow bang bang the piano.
after the piano banging, they ask then our porject how?
i say i dunno
then rina played a song, not bad not bad! really luhhs..
Peisin: then our music project how?
then i go bang the piano then blah blah blah..
then they all ask then our music project lehs.?
peisin: i dunno
jiain plays the piano.
then i ask then our project leh?
the whole process repeat again.
jialin and rina: then our project leh?
peisin: i dont know. the only thing i know is that we dunno anything about our project.
OK lame but it really really took place in my life.=.=

then today stay at home. then did the art.
let the master of copy ps teach you something about art. TO ALL CHILDREN WHO ARE LOUSY IN ART LIKE ME, YOU CAN DRAW SOMETHING. type the things you want to find in the com in any website then search for the image you want the enlarge it. then put your art paper on the computer screen. off all the lights in your room..Take a pencil and trace the things you want to draw out. You wont want to scratch your screen right? then please be gentle. while tracing on the screen. It has been proven that it is 100% safe if you follow the procedure and most imptly be GENTLE.!

the end of today's chapter.
TOBECONTINUED>>>>>`

2008-08-31T13:21:00.004+08:00

Your Birthdate: November 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.
Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.
Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are the Superego

While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all.
You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously.
Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself.
You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

i got so clever then good liao luhhs...

I wont be in SG for the next few days uh! go Slack abit. :X

went back to YPS! And YES! I SAW PJH!!!! arrrs!!! he grow like damn taller then he was, chinwoonping voice finally broke! SO was PJH voice. then YY came back. 6hope own! 6 peace alot ppl never come back hahs!

actually is not very little people, is just that alot 6 hope de ppl come! i taller then Shirley liao :X hahas! but teo wei shan is TALLER!! Ruo Zhu slim down... Low Sheng Xian, he... uhh grow taller. aiya in total everyone grew taller! Mr SIm dun recon.. me. He was there: " you are not from our school hor?" then all the Hope people was like, she is peisin, you dun recon her already uh? i go back all give me the shock diao face... I never changed alot mahx... stay until 2 plus then left lerhx... cuz all hope ppl went to play bbal/badminton. Then the poor me need rush home then go some weird talk. Next year no more liao, poof the school merge with PEIXIN! so sad... alot of memories sia... hahas... living in small class room, small hall, poor quality toilet, Colourful toilet. Yan lao SHi was on MC THAT DAY! nvm see her quite often anyway. :X then i keep the present for myself..:X

要忘记一个人，不知时因为太恨他，还是太爱他。

PUT THE BLAME ON ME THEN, GO AHEAD AND TELL EVERYONE WHAT I DID AND MAKE THEM HATE ME. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? THEN DO IT! IF YOU ARE GUILTY THEN I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU, BUT IF YOU ARE NOT THEN I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU.

end~~

2008-08-27T21:48:00.003+08:00

i don't know if i'm doing the right thing lehh... i don't dare sia... later kena hurt again sia then i become criminal liao... By then don't know where to hide my face luhhs. Maybe go quit band luhhs, best solution i think. But i not even sure myself, i'm afraid i will withdraw again... Since such a big risk might as well don't take the risk luhhs. Stay away perhaps...

why put me in this situation? I will only hut people de luhhs...

JUST HOW DO I PUT THEM IN WORDS...

THEREFORE I DECLARE I WON't TAKE THE RISK!

2008-08-25T17:46:00.002+08:00

In the first place, 没有拥有就不会失去，没有好过拥有。

hehex^^ my ang moh lousy can't figure out how to write in english.
let talk about philosophy... blah blah blah... greedy man on the world... blah blah blah... ok crap.

the hw like.._l_ T.T see liao can really cry... BUT bUTBUTBUTBUt! i lazy hahas.! today was practically a BAD NOSE DAY i think! i hope not flu... was like hachiu-ing throughout the whole day. Can't stop, think tmr must get ready 1 box of tissues, not enough? then 10000000 box of tissue... i go lame diao liao... then still got art exam exam, also dunno still left how many weeks luhhs... friday going back to YPS ! lols... so sad cause yps is going to vanish from the MOE list of schools! actually not i sad larhs hor is the school sad, anyway all the teachers that taught me already left that school left yan lao shi only, go back see her luhhs...
My maths and science results were like CRAP... nvm is it not counted anymore anyway... SA2 100% wor!!! then after school straight away go home hungry for tissues! still got damn load of homeworks so.. hahas!

endhere~ poof*******

2008-08-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

THE DATE TODAY IS.... 20/08/2008 COOL!!! in DDMMYYYY, it is 20082008! once in a century leh! omgosh... so must post today so that i can rmb! hahs!

damn cool larhx... well the previous post was to tease A.K.A de larhx... it was his msn nick hahas! today i like damn active sia...

ONE MORE THING
yesterday we did a bullshit test by the MOE survey then i did maths... was squeezing out my brain juices then thought dun nid waste energy think laa not counted in Ca or Sa... the last few question which i dunno how to do or so call lazy to tink... something happen to them... HAHAH! i anyhow do got one question on angle then i go and rite 580 degree which is impossible then i go put one more the temperature near the sun 580 degree celcius i put the C damn big. RIDICULOUS me ... then last question... i go write unknown X , unlimited X then the other one i write i ans sheet never write anything..

hahas...

that all liao... slp///

2008-08-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

TONIGHT... will be the night that i would fall for you again, Over AGAIN, Dont make me change my mind. I will live for another day just to see you. It is true i swear cause a person like you is impossible to find...

2008-08-08T13:46:00.002+08:00

TIme really really waits for no one....

on 31st of July the shanghai students came and me had to run up and down for them. BUT !!! thanks to them i got to PON a lot of lessons and dun nid to take some test lehh.. then suddenly, BOOMM!!! it is already 8/8/08 triple eight wor cool hor? yesterday we bid farewell to the shanghai students.. yuan yuan, ting ting , qing qing and yao yao you are all missed. today i think they flying off at 10 plus.

5th of august, band had a performance at ngee ann city damn tired larhx... morning study study then after all the way till 11 then sleep. played twice really can die like that. but overall is okiees larhx...

then TODAy.... muahhaha... 2E4 got 2nd for the badminton competition. Actually hor we can get 1st de luh only if the teacher postpone the match for the BOYs double then we can win liao luhhs. aiya nvm we stil got a trophy. Jialin and me own!!! hahas! we won all the matches. AND it is my first time seperated from vivien for badminton match and she is my opponent. Is like primary 4 until 6 both of us always team de and always get 2nd ... =.= i m fated to get second de luhh..
nvm dun care liao.

today olympics starts liao lehh omg see all those pro... if hor i can go then shiok luhh. FAT Hope...
then tmr is national day liao wor. time is like "shxium!!!" then going 2009 liao.. OMgosh ... aiya dun care liao.. sleep more important.

2008-07-27T16:10:00.002+08:00

i dont owe you any apology. cause i have done nothing wrong. I no longer the peisin who will throw my pride away and apolpgize to the things which i have not done and even if i have done it i dont feel i have done the wrong thing. Hate me if you want. " no matter how much you hate a person, the person will never feel it, you will only be the one living in the misery of hurt."

nothing much to do lately anyway. Alot of homeworks but lazy to do. Stil clinging on to the R& J project though we are the last group to present, I wanna watch the whole movie. Mdm Kaur talk and talk but never show it to us. Today went to cut my hair at Stelle auty thare. Cut till like so short so damn hou hui. My fringe! then after that mei gugu brought me and my sis go singepore flyer. My sis was so damn afraid of height. It was so damn cool. Everything i see it like so small. hahs. My msg bomba again, =.= cant msg for so long. My hands getting itchy liao. ARRS!

need do bao zhang bao dao. =.=

end here~

2008-07-20T17:20:00.003+08:00

greatest SINNER... that why, my name is pei SIN... i really dont understand what i did to deserve all this. Every moves i make, i think about A, worry that she will get hurt, me myself get hurt nevermind. In the end, this is what i ended up with... And B, because of her, i have to do something which i dont wish to. In the end the person who is hurt is not only me but someone else. I trusted B so much, i never thought that she would betray me.

NOW, there is nothing else i can do, to C my words to her is already very hard to be believed yet she still believes me like siao.
I dun wan to qiang you from A, tell her you believe her and not me bahs...
maybe, that really going to solve everything...

2008-07-14T17:57:00.002+08:00

today monday mad rush sia... woke up then know that still got alot of things still not done.! My bag not even pack. Then on the way to school.. kena scolding.... NAGNAGNAG>>> blabla... dont care...
lynn today really never come to school lehh.. super sia she... dunn she coming tmr or not...

afterschool go the Shanghai meeting then the shanghai people coming over to singapore around the end of July. But my buddy not coming. But!!! my buddy's friend coming... hehex^^ but dunno if can get to choose buddy de or not. Dont even know if the teacher let me choose my own buddy. then go watch the talent time thingi... then after that walk with Serene go busstop then wait for Jialin, then they went off!

stupid larhx... my stupid legs.. i cant run anymore.. LOUSY!!!@#% raaW!!!! the timing drop like wth!!!
Cant run anymore liao i think. Dying soon, no more air liao, all my air used up liao. my 2.4... hopeless liao. getting useless...

no band on TUES!! yeah!! can go home early! SLEEPPPPP!!! woah haha! but Wednesday got band... =.- so many homeworks but lazy to do... cannot liao... no more stamina to do homework liao...

what going to happen tmr... who knows? I suddenly feel so lost... nothing is forever.. i'm just left with regrets for not cherishing the time thinking that he would have alot of time... if he can come back, i will do anything just to see him. Hear him talk! you are not Forgotten!

2008-07-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

time past... So many things have happen this whole week. Suddenly it is gone, his is forever gone. Just gone like that dont know what to say about it. and dont feel like talking about it.
anyway we got SILVER for NBC. I didnt screw up my soli... PHew..

2008-07-03T20:41:00.002+08:00

finally... it is thursday, and tmr, friday Today Miss Tow was like like damn funny larh she only passed BIO. Then today in class she did alot of things then the class laugh like.. HAHAS! then lynn... laughed like siao! shant bad mouth her... got a weird feeling... saw somebody on the bus, my reaction was supposed to be... but i felt like nothing then i continue boarding the bus then somemore nearly say hello... lols.. TIME HAS PROVEN everything! I can remember it i CAN forget it somemore it already hopeless lerhx...

days pass, and i think i should take the bear out of the cupboard...

for that mou mou ren, luckily only i was injured no one else was or else, you wont be what you were today.
bleanhsx... :P

2008-07-01T20:32:00.002+08:00

BAND! As per normal, everything went normal, normal school day, normal school life... Getting more and more boring. Lols damn funny luhhs.. roday in class, miss cheng never come, and mrs chew come to our class. So long never see mrs chew lerhx, lols. she very funny luhhs.. HAHA. Then after school saw MAM huiyi! after came back from shanghai, until now then see her in school. She suddenly sit behind me, then like MARIA! then i JUMPED up! lols, it has been some time since Someone calls me maria...

band, sucks, my washington first few bars sucks, where is lucella, i cant play when i'm tense, when there is tong, i cant play a single shit..
arrs, nezxt week nbc..=.=

NEED RUSH ALL THE HOMEWORK LIAO... sosososo

end~here.....

2008-06-30T15:56:00.003+08:00

Monday! arrrs... Monday sickness.. monday mad rush, the same old stupid Monday, woke up exceptipnally late today. The stupid mad rush! rushing like mad and nearly lost my contact lens. Stood in the toilet for 10 mins, touching the floor, looking for transparent small thingy, Touch TOuch TOuch! Finally!! found that stupid contact lens... WASH the thing.. rush out.. then off to school. Nothing unusual. Stupid! what happened to my legs, my knee cap, run only two rounds, the whole knee cap pain, until now still got the damn pain. I cant take it ! i Dont BELIEVE that my knee cap would...! ARRSSS!!! i cant RUN anymore. I dont believe this i;m going to drink loads of milk then i wan trun again! i dont believe i cant RUN!!!!!! NOO!!!! WAY!!!.

Change topic... =.='

still got the art stll got all the homework haven chiong finish. SIANX ARR,, and my theory homework haven do finish, my mum is nagging like mad cuz that day i didnt do then the teacher complain. ahha! lols,.. nvm, if got time then do, no time ask those theory pro, ask them teach me...

tomorow, BAND!!! woah!!! and bye hamizah! hahas, cant make you stay.. too bad luhhs.. i dont hav the rights to stop you from leaving, you have your HUMAN RIGHTS! bleahxs... BUAI BUAI!!! bu song lerhs! and Lucella!!! dont go dont go!~~~ if you go, take me along with you! i dont want you to go. PLEASE STAY!!! Haiz.. cant force you anyway. If you really choose to go then... good luck... if you stay then very GOOD! cause the whole section dont want you to go! mr tong oso dunwan you to go! the whole band oso.. i believe so :X

end-here~~

2008-06-26T21:15:00.003+08:00

woah! finally got a little little time to post something. School reopen. good-bye to mrs heng and HI to miss tow. She damn funny sia, today she said that our science project marks will have to depend on her mental state because someone said that she was SIAO. Guess what? She ADMIT it.

Nothing special happen this few weeks. Everyday, go school , go band, do homework until midnight, then sleep. Repeating the same old routine again. NBC is Coming. oh my gosh and my stupid stupid soli... lucella let jiayous together! if we squeak lets squeak together... the thing i'm scared is my intonation and worst still. My i'm afraid that both me and lucela scared until never play then like that time Parcels like that, the solo.. this time is NBC lehh!!! OH MY GOSH!!!! Some more... this year going streaming liao. Then all the teacher is like : " there is no more time for all of you to slack! If you want to play play after your end of year! This year is very important. and if you want to go to the class you want you have to work hard!" all the relief teacher come in hor, also day the same thing. Ssy until i also GONG GONG liao...

I WAN T TO GO TRIPLE SCIENCE!!!!

but i think most prob is double science de laa.... my english, so lan, dont even know if i can make it for my higher chinese or not. "palm sweating" already.
TIME is really really short liao... shit laa... So STress up. All my tuition teacher is like please don't go to double science. I want all my students to get triple SCienCE!!!! arr! ok dont talk about this already

MY MOOD damn damn Damn high.. Guess What! Prescilla and yong er coming tomorow for our band practice! and the coming to give us moral support for NBC! good right,,, all though moral support still not enough but, like im very content already.

lastly, i wanna thank the person who gave me the CUTE CUTE CUTE BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BEAR!!! thank you!!!

one more thing! chrystal! never call your mama! make me worry! oh ya! flute compeitition coming! why everything cramp together de!

2008-06-20T10:48:00.004+08:00

getting lazy or what. Not in the mood yet, yesterday, i finally know half of the truth, and i'm the one getting blame for being so fake. i cant stop asking myself, m i ? i'm not, why dont you just trust me, when you finally gained my trust you change your mind. how do you ever ever expect me to take it in one shot? if you stil think i'm faking prove to me! let me make this clear, from the begining until now, i have never never never ever ever ever fake, and i have never forgotten you even until now if you were to see this.... so be it... i will never forget you

2008-06-13T14:45:00.005+08:00

lols... found so many cool things scroll down to read on... so damn,,,, you know what i'm gonna say.. hahas.. so touching

TIME is very slow for those who wait,
very fast for those who are scared,
very long for those who are lament,
very short for those who celebrate.
But, for those who love, time is eternity.

still got one more...

love me
when i less deserve it,
because it then
when i need it most.

anothoer one....

always,there is a drop of madness in love,yet always, there is a drop of reason in madness.
another one

many people lose small joys,
in hope for the big happiness

so touching right? people who wrote these are....W.S, P.S.B, F.n

lols don't tell you who... later paiseh.. spell wrong the name... so anyhow put... bleanhsx...=P!

nothing much to do today.. yesterday was the project work mad rush. Sili, lynn, SI min all come my house do the maths project start early in the morning around 10am... early hor lols... then guess what time we finish? 6pm... late right. Can't believe we actually sat down and did our project though alot of noise made. hahas. and within one day we finish the whole project! thank you thank you! we are too smart to finish it in one day hahaha! next week last week of holidays and all my homework mad rushes are going to start! so JIAYOUS!!! to all those people who do things last minute... hahas. stupid la.. yesterday they come tell me that the literature need to do the review thing for the Romeo and juliet,,, oh my gosh!
i really can't imagine me sitting down and read the book and do the review. Anyway i AM going to do it and i must do it! woah haha! geography newspaper article still left four more articles to go! my maths work left chapter 7 and the stupid maths tect book question.. some people say need to do some say don't need. Someone reliadble! please tell me need do what page... never mind i never do oso nevermind just say i ask nobody tell me then i in shanghai how they tell me... "GOOD IDEA" isn't it?
ok lames..

later going to mr ho for maybe maths... tomorow, morning also got mr ho, at night go steven then go ahma house.. lols... nothing typical for saturday always bored maybe not even going to ahma house cause everyone not in singapore... =.= aiya,,, dun care larhx... need to go and get ready to go mr ho lerhs..
SO>>>>

end-here~~~

2008-06-11T11:41:00.002+08:00

fine! to some people! i sucks! i can be blame for the wrong i have commited but i cant take it if i am blamed for something that i have not even committed... what you want me to do... wanted to help also kena scolding. what you want me to do..

2008-06-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

999 words

2008-06-07T14:27:00.002+08:00

completely tired of everything... Monday still got sectionals gonna see my mood luhhs... i think i gonna give them hell... special package, 10 wrong in one score will owe me one round.. sounds sad uhh...? I have no choice but to do this, big section uhh.. so called big larhx, NO CHOICE . so torture abit wont die de larhx...

i don't know why, i really don' t know why... i don't wish to mention the person up in this blog... but the person you knoe who it is...

totally frreak out by my tooot sister.... complain bitche shant argue with her.. brainless pea brain.. come larhs fight computer with me in the end you wont stand anything to gain so that your plight... i feel so sorry for you uh ..
ahah
who ask you luhhs.. wont help you de wait until you cry until wan die i os wont help you de... what blood is thicker den water... big lies... CRAP... add oil inside the water den it will be thicker then blood liao luhhs...
who cares about you...

2008-06-06T14:46:00.004+08:00

hahas! i m so so so so so SOSOSOSOSOSO BORED!!!! later still need to go to mr ho... =.= T.T i dont want to go ! i lazy go ! i was browsing thru the net and guess what i found? i Found the Recorder FINGERING CHART!!! muah haha woah haha... i didnt noe that it has like got 2 octaves.. omgosh. And it was like damn high pitched and can play chromatic notes somemore sia... shock me till like.....

i don't know what happen... i suddenly thought of ...

aiya can't be bother with the stupid brain of mine mine...

don;t make empt y promises when you are not sure.... you will end up hurting the one whom you made the promise to...

2008-06-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

ahah! shit larhx... my msg bomb again. this time need to pay $7.20!!!!1 why evertime oso bomba de.... =.= sian luhhs... now ppl sms me i never reply,and my hand is itchy can... so damn itchy i want to press the keypad... omgosh! what did i just say? i m addicted to handphone! oh no oh no!
ok lame.., i noe it is pure madness..
today sectionals was slighty better then yesterday... hahas.,.so partly becaouse there is air-con hahas... and hamizah:"you improved a little so don't give up!" don' t you quit band else all the effort you put in a few months before all wasted already. You can bear to see all your effort go down the drain? I teach you like siao already so you quit then i waste all my saliva liao...
today's mad rush is officially a sucess... i finish all my theory last minute... and guess what i got? i got all correct then my teacher was like: did i mark it wrong... haha laugh until like siao...
keep on thinking about the days i had in shanghai ... really miss it... wonder how they are doing in school etc. i dunno why. it just a very strong feeling, it makes me emo... hahas so don't talk about emoemo stuffs...
hahas... i really dont know what to do. so yah,,, just gonna .....

end-here

2008-06-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

finally completed the siao siao mad rush! WOAH!!! MY NEW RECORD... FOR ONLINING UNTIL 1147 THIS MIN THIS SECOND .
lols but only chatting with one person. Hahas... the mad rush i took out everything i could find and dump it all inside!
today morning practically only had sectionals... came back and did the mad rush, all the way till NOW.
pro rite? no larhx.. just joking. oh my gosh i still haven do my theory homework... and tmr is WED!!! tmr got piano lesson...
zzz.. i wan slap myself lerhx larhx.. so slack these few days... all because of the two sisters of mind... =
tmr still have MRHO =.= den tmr still is math somemore need to rush back and have the piano lesson. stil need wake up early for the sectionals and nedd walk all the way to school just to hand in the work i had done. LET ME TELL YOU THIS.. the teacher is gonna puke blood cuz it is all rubbish "evil smile" make them have more white hairlost more blood who ask them gimme homework... HAHAHAS...
lols.. it getting late and my mind a little bit cranky already hehex^^
going to slepp lerhx

2008-06-02T10:42:00.005+08:00

our collections of food
me and my buddy Song Qian Yan
shuhong and buddy, me and qian yan, wenxin and buddy... i look fat haha

Wingsze and me
rina and me

RINA, ME , MRS CHEW, JIA LIN , BERNICE

finally got the time to post the pictures....

the times which i hope i would never forget...

it is so fun...

i want to go stay in China lerhx....

i dun wan stay in singapore liao though we are so called 'natural-disaster free'
looking back... the 10days are really short... it is over so so so soon...

what i am left is all the memories...

I WANNA GO THERE AGAIN!!! WITH THE SAME BUNC H OF PEOPLE! THE FUN WE HAD!

so thats the end of the shanghai thingi... it would be something more memorable when they come over...

NEXT,

the things i dread most!!! holiday homework...! all those maths homework all those whatever project!!! ARRS! i'm only lef t with 3 weeks... and the sucking school reopen!!! OH YA and my that shanghai project still haven finish..! oh my gosh! i still dun have enough rest! NO MORE SLACKING! THIS YEAR IMPT!!! my mye super "good" cannot already must chiong this term! dont care already must chiong!

forgot about all the unhappy things and burry yourself i n your books your instruments and your tuition!

2008-05-31T15:12:00.002+08:00

firstly hi! people i am back from China, Shanghai! In fact i dont miss singapore and my family at all! hahas... no larhx. it is damn fun can. Me , jia lin, rina, guang liang.... i love the hostel life and the time we had at shanghai. it was damn fun. i will post the pictures much later cause i have alot of things to do!!! come back need arrrange the sectionals for my sections and for my 'dear ' juniors... tired although i came back on tuesday i got to rest only today partly because of BAND yeah. Manage to change my skins. nice rite? bhb... damn sian damn tired...

not in the mood to post much...
get well soon yeye...!

end-here~~~

2008-05-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

guys... don't miss me serene yanhong lynn liyue chrystal and all... i will miss you all even if you don't .
i will be away for 10 days. don' worry yan hong i will go in one piece and come back in one piece. i will be back by 27/5 so ppl you can start counting down!

yesterday ran 1500m... n got 4th i was behind eunice and was that close, i wanted to push you no scare you.and the last 100m sprint i really canot catch up with your long legs so don't listen to others i never let you and i cannot win you cause of your long long long legs and i really cant sprint so everybody i lose to eunice so don't blame me luhhs...

have not finish packing all my stuffs i am soso looking forward to tumoro night sleep in the hostel then got rina and jialin three of us sleep in a room. Cool rite... but we won't get to celebrate the VESak day luhhs... monday still need to wake up so damn early. cuz need to do morning exercise.. "grumbles" nvm

i go pack already at night still got tuition then need go to my ahma house... tumoro ppl pls give me morning call or else i will miss the plane!!!

end-here...

2008-05-15T17:46:00.000+08:00

lols all the results are outta... got so high in sci... first time bahs... quite sastified with all the results but still need to work harder for my languages which are still so SUCKING... didnt do reali well for english esp. yestersday was sis bdae so HAPPY bdae!! has been eating so many cakes sure growing fat this month.. grrr.. tumoro will hav sports heat lerhx... OH MY GOSH what am i gonna do i 4 big rounds how do i go about it. anyways... jiayous 2e4 !

need start packing for the shanghai trip 10 days.. =.= so damn long... some more HE is going i dont know how m i gonna live facing him for 10 days.. staying in hotel n hostel... hope nothing goes wrong so the trip wont b cancelled... anyways... we are still frens...

OH ya i dont know if it is a good news or a bad one. more of the latter ehs? I m OFFICIALLY A SECTION LEADER OF CLARINET... shit rite... i must be ready for the TORTURE lim jing heng is gonna give us... 'I M SO SOSO SCARE " bleanhsx...=p
gotta start packing lerhx.. so end herehere

2008-05-12T11:17:00.000+08:00

lols i know it damn long since the last post... so...
FRIDAY- 9/5/08
last paper damn high then aftnoon went back tu school have the shanghai immersion briefing. lols didnt know got so many rules and still have the bag which is so "CUTE" gonna find time tu customize it... then at night went to celebrate early mother day with grandma went to a big restaurant. whole family there is like we damn big... lols... shiok luhhs can drink wine de drank 3 cups den yang n wei got tipsy... adults all dun allow us to drink much onli me n 2 peeps.. drank 3... hehex^^ den aft that went to TTSH to see yeye.. hope he will get well soon and the report come out soon and hope it is a good news and no spreading of the cancer cells to the bones... yeye also damn cute.... he talk until very funny he said he will box the nurse if he was in his younger days.. cuz of some reason... long story... den aft that home SWEET home! =)

Satuday-10/5/08
lols went to downtown east with yang and my irritating 2nd sis... actually is going with yanhong, liyue, haikal n somemore... but someone back out last minute so they all not going... crap rite? but i dun dare blame you larhx... if not ppl will kill me de isnt it ? they nvr go also quite fun de luhhs.... we went to the escape first cuz i stole the card from my mum den got dicount then act lk children go in buy child ticket... there nothing dde luhhs so sianx.. all baby rides all not shiok one... then aft that went tu the wild wild wet is was damn fun... but lk run here run there my feet get blister... then at nite got the bbq then stay over night slp
SUNDAY-11/5/08
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY AND HAPPY BDAE MUMMMY !
tis year didnt buy present cuz you don't waste money as long as i guai okiees luhhs so nvr buy.. hehex^^
TODAY-12/5/08

lols... nothing to post luhhs. the damn computer sot sot liao... cnt change my skins dunno why. after exam

lerhx stay at home nothing to do damn slack luhhs like something is amiss. yupps something IS amiss... and it is missing for three weeks and i think i have got use to it. but i was damn shock i thought that i would be like super angry but i did not... kinda weird so ya.. maybe it has reach a stage where it has.....

FORget ABT the unHAPPy ThingiS ppl i am going to shanghai so ppl don't miss me... i know you wont... this means how many band prac i am gonna miss... OMGOSH the stupid hanuukka... the running notes still not ready... dunno still have the embrochure... so long nver touch my baobbei clarrinetty liao... tumoro hav band pracl. ARRs i gonna warm up my fingers lerhx.. still got piano theorY haven do luhhs....

that all... will post all those pictures maybe some other days soon...